Suicidal, but not depressed. Where do I go from here?

Please find a counselor or psychologist (cities or states usually have free or low cost ones that are good) and explain everything to them. They have a lot of contacts that can help you with housing, employment, help you understand how the trauma in your life has affected you. It sounds scary because there are so many unknowns, but I did it and it was the best decision I ever made. Let them help.